Fear...a four letter word but it can cause one to lose out on so many wonderful opportunities. It can cause one to make many irrational decisions that one would look back on with regret. I say this because I look back on a few decisions I made in life with regret or wishing that I hadn't done that. In relation to food, I wish I hadn't switched from the pastry programme at university into the culinary one. Why did I do it you may ask? Well, to be honest I thought that it would be easier to get a job back home in Turks and Caicos as a Savory chef than as a pastry chef, and secondly it was fear.
It was fear that I wouldn't be as good as some of the other students who seemed to have a knack for pastry arts. Just so that you understand where I am coming from, I had attended Trinity Western University in Langley, British Columbia for a year to study Computer Science and Education.
I started at Johnson & Wales University at the age of 22 and in my class I met students who had restaurant experience and who had taken many art classes, so their drawing skills were good. I was honestly scared. Of course I didn't take into consideration that "practice makes perfect"; the had been practicing a long time.
Now fast forward to February 1st 2011, I am now 27 years old and I now work as a Night Auditor/Receptionist at the runnymede-on-thames in Egham Surrey. I love my job, I really do but there is still that deep love for food and I still want to work with pastry or better yet cakes. But on my own time. My fear was that it is too late to learn sugarcraft. Again, I was afraid. The day you stop learning is the day you die (just popped into my head as I typed the last sentence).
Whew!!! that is out of my system. I remind myself now that "God has not given me a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, a spirit of love and a sound mind". With Christ all things are possible. I can do anything and be anyone if I put my mind to it. With that said, I know what I have to do. Work hard, focus and do what I set out to do. It is not too late.
